Its been sucha long time since I even have the time to really sit down and blog about something. Not that anyone would be reading it and caring how my life is now. But things are getting kinda rough lately and I totally have no idea where I should be engaging my rage or temper or emotions at. 

Its been stressful still working at the same company with things going on everyday. Things are still piling up everyday at work, I feel that the struggle is real now. True that alot of close friends around me are asking me if its worth it to still be working at the same place. But to be honest, i'm at doubts, I feel that I have this fear inside me, thats why im unsure still if I should still be staying at the same place or move on to somewhere better.

Even for friendship or anything other stuffs that might relate. Its like, the amount of effort I put into something, who would be real enough to be appreciating it in this realistic world now? Everyone is wearing this mask on them when they meet different people, be it your closest friends, colleagues, cilents and all, am I wrong to say that? Not that I doubt my friends and not trust them, but really, just like the sentence: Breaking a trust is easy by a mistake, mending the trust and gaining it back takes hundred years or more, no matter what happens, even if you think that you mend the trust back, trust me, there's still that 0.01% of trust on that anymore. 

Unsure if I am PMS-ing now or what but I think im getting super emotional over friendships and all now, something is just wrong and I don't know how to explain it either now. I'm just wondering if I was ever worth fighting for in the friendship from my friend's view?